After weeks and weeks of work, I’m getting somewhere. This last fall semester consisted of work on my concept and the space planning for the actual building.
I made some great strides on my concept, though much of that happened after the term ended! It turns out getting walking pneumonia, then pneumonia, during the last half of the semester and feeling worst during finals is NOT a great idea. Take your vitamin-C folks!!!
For weeks I did not feel that my concept was solid, deep, or coherent enough. I think you know when your concept is ready when other subsequent design choices start to get pretty easy, and really fun. If not, head back to that metaphorical - or actual - drawing board, my friend.
However, spending some relaxed, meditative time during winter break in a delightful coffee shop with The Civil Wars playing on repeat through your headphones can be quite a productive way to spend one’s time!
Beyond securing a work-worthy environment, for me it took recognizing what was working in the very impressive work of one of my classmates. Her concept had become so solid, deep, and coherent that it had essentially taken on a life of its own within their space. I really, really wanted that. I wanted for my building to speak my concept fluently.
Once I realized that the reason my peer’s concept was so effective was because it had a dynamic to it - it was an actual life, not simply a set of spots in a building where some ideas could take shape - I got something to click for my own concept. Ideas that I had repeatedly scratched over and over again onto paper as I tried to machete-chop my way through to clarity, like a traveler hacking her way through blackberry brambles to reach the restful oasis just beyond, suddenly congealed and took a form that stood with conviction, energy, and vitality.
Ultimately, my greenhouse concept is fueled by this quote:
Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people will not feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us; it is in everyone and as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give others permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.
And the work on my building looks a little something like this:
I am eager to share and get feedback on these newer decisions from my professors, and particularly in the ways I am currently envisioning the concept taking shape within my space. I want to push my design more and more. I really want the thesis itself to be excellent, and I really want to learn as much as I can about how to do this while I still get to be in school. To manipulate spaces with everything available in order to create a genuinely new world that accomplishes what it sets out to do for those who will use it.
In this same sense I have also been reflecting a lot this week about how Interior Architecture & Design has been an amazing starting point for my direct involvement with this industry. But the more I learn, the more I want to understand as much as I can about architecture and even urban planning, too. The making of uplifting, relevant, ideally functional spaces and places, at all scales, is just the best, isn’t it?!